lows:
1. my dad tricking me into buying him cigarettes. i am SO pissed.
2. purposely breaking my phone and trying to upgrade it and failing. my sister’s buttons on her phone came off and she brought hers in and got a free upgrade to the newest, latest model! which is bullshit cuz i came in with the same problem with the same phone (motorola rizr) a few months ago and they gave me the same phone again! so i popped off the buttons (held on by a very crappy rubbery glue) and brought mine in, but apparently it had water damage (damn that little red dot!!) so i couldn’t. which is dumb because i’ve never dropped it in water. AHHHH. but luckily i kept the buttons and stuck them back on…i just hope they don’t fall off easier now…reminder to self: krazy glue that shit.
3. bills, bills, bills, bills, bills, bills, bills. my poor bank account.

highs:
1. i got to see my dear friend cherie today! it’s very strange because when we meet up it’s like no time has passed, when in reality it has been a whole year! it was great seeing her and she is the cutest.
2. after picking up my mom from work with jenny, we went to sprouts and spent $130 on vitamins (fish oil, zinc, women’s daily vitamin for over 40), a world of plums, pluots, donut peaches, peaches and nectarines and a bottle of dr. bronner’s 18-in-1 pure-castile almond soap. this is kind of a high and a low as the money-spending is so high, but we got 10% off the vitamins + body products and the fruits were very inexpensive and DELICIOUS so it counts as a high.
3.  i had my follow-up today with my oral surgeon and he said things were healing very well, yay!  i told him about how i wanted to get a job at a dentist’s office also this semester, and i asked him if he knew anyone in tucson who i could possibly work with – it turns out, he knows very well the main and sole dental stuff supplier for all of tucson who in turn knows all the dentists, oral surgeons, orthodontists, etc. in tucson!  i had my resume ready like a pro schmoozer and he said he’d for sure give me a call!  i am super-excited.

overall a good, super-productive day.

last night i had a dream where i drunkenly made out with a jonas brother… even creepier, it was the young one…nick jonas?….who i just wikipedia’d and he is 15-years-old…SIX YEARS younger than me…i am such a dream creeper!!

advil pm kicking in…so tired…
i’m off vicodin! wheee. today is officially the first day my gums have stopped bleeding every time i pop retainer back in! yayy!

will rest and heal now

p.s. today watched “charade” (audrey hepburn, cary grant), “like water for chocolate” and more of “waking life” (find it best to watch it first in bits and pieces – gets too confusing and wordy if i watch it all in one go – makes my still healing brain hurt)

so tired. sleepytime!

i have recently become reacquainted with string cheese and i must say, i could not be happier.

p.s. it took around 5 hours after the last post before i ate more veggie chips.

fuck my life, i hate myself for eating those damn chips!!  and that cereal.  and the pizza.  and all the not soft things i’ve been eating.  my mouth hurts like a mofo today, and it’s all swollen and bloody and bruised.  and i’m puffy still!  which is great because i had to go and run my mom’s errands today and experience the whole “i really hope you don’t actually think i look like this” feeling.  i am super-scared that i’m going to have this botoxed monkey look forever.

so last night my family and andrew (who visited me in my puffy, monkey-like state with candles (hazelnut cream and mulled cider), a book (water for elephants by sara gruen) and a cd (“vampire weekend”) – bless his heart) hopped on over to our neighborhood fresh & easy. man i love that place! i really wish they’d open one in tucson because i think swarms of lazy college kids would frequent the place for yummy, gourmet pre-packaged meals and sorts.

i picked up a bag of veggie chips which i am now eating despite my healing from oral surgery. it’s just too hard not to!! i have zero self discipline when it comes to things like food.  (or shopping.  or not studying.  …okay i have none at all.)  whatever, i’d rather be fat and happy than malnourished and grumpy. it hurts kinda but whatever. one gripe about the fresh & easy brand veggie chips: they are seriously salty! i’ve been missing salty things ever since this diet of yogurt and ice cream, but man! no bueno. does that stop me from eating them though? nope.

salmon was on sale so my mom bought like, eight fillets. we also bought this really yummy fish, lamb and vegetable rub that has lavender in it! even though we got back home at 9:30 pm and had already had dinner my mom insisted we eat some right then, since it was “fresh”, and so cheap that we could just “eat it for fun”. sounds weird translated, or maybe it’s just weird in general (probably the latter). it was super-tasty even though i was so full.

today at my follow-up appointment my mom gave the oral surgeon a potted orchid and proceeded to do a series of mini-bows thanking him, then going off into long, convoluted, broken-english “thank you” speeches about how grateful i am, like i’m not sitting in the patient’s chair right next to him. soo awkward. my mom also has this tendency to be incredibly scatter-brained and clumsy, like tripping over herself like she’s drunk or something. the thing is, when she does it, unlike normal people who nervously laugh it off or something, she doesn’t even notice. she just keeps goin’, looking preoccupied in another world in the meantime. …totally where i get it from?

we also picked up a quart of turtle mountain organic so delicious mint marble fudge ice cream ($2.99!! was $4.99 at sprouts!)… sooo good! feels much nicer on my sore mouth tissue than pokey veggie chip bits (WEIRD!). it has a nice, silky creaminess – not rich like ice cream, but light, like…whipped cream ice cream? it’s definitely tasty though, and the chocolate swirls are delicious! i want to try the chocolate velvet!

all these random healthy things i’m eating and reading up about is kind of inspiring me to start eating more organic and dairy-free things! not vegetarian, mind you, since one of the things i miss most (it’s only been two days??) is meat.

Minnetonka Black Suede Calf Hi 3-In-One Boot

i just ordered these. what is wrong with me??
ummm.. perhaps they are a post-surgery, get-well present to myself?
i’ve been stalking them online for just under a year so i just took the plunge.

surgery went very well! the nurse suiting me up before the surgery was like, “wow, you seem really alert. did you take the xanax?” and i was like, “yeah, two of them.” (they recommended 1-2; 1 was like “one too many drinks” and 2 was supposed to black me out.) my poor little liver is so used to overworking because of my “party girl” drinking habits that it flushes everything out of my system as soon as it enters my body, i’m sure (i only call say “party girl” because my godsister? in california introduced me to her boyfriend as the party girl. though i think i’m just a girl who goes to a party school.) i remember pretty much everything besides after they gave me the laughing gas or whatever, but even then i remember bits and pieces of the surgery and their conversation during it. (“oh, did you know she wants to be a dentist?” “no kidding!”) so that’s pretty sweet. i was all swollen and loopy and bleeding for a while, but then i took a nap woke up significantly less swollen (still loopy and bleeding, ew sorry). before i took a nap i made my marmee lull me to sleep by reading my disney cinderella storybook, which she did for about five pages before getting up, peacing out and going to work. my mom has this tendency to declare and nod for emphasis that something is a really good story three pages in after realizing that the protagonist is a hard-working, good person who is under-appreciated and mistreated (see: harry potter, cinderella) since she grew up an orphan and working, among other things, as a child peddler, sweatshop sewing machine operator, etc. etc. it’s quite funny and cute.

i’ve also been keeping up with my vicodin/amoxicillin cocktail so no pain really. they took bone and tissue from the roof of my mouth to do grafts on my gums to accommodate the titanium rods, so that’s the part that hurts the worst. my sister made me some instant noodle soup and stirred some beaten eggs in as a kind of “egg drop soup” and it was pretty delicious.

before the surgery i hit up sprouts farmers market for some different yummy yogurts and ice creams. i got:
rachel’s wickedly delicious® all natural, low fat yogurt: RELAX vanilla chai, CALM plum honey lavender and VITALITY pomegranate açaí.
so delicious dairy free^® yogurt: cinnamon bun, peach x 2, vanilla
silk live!™ soy yogurt: banana-strawberry and key lime
good karma organic rice divine: very vanilla

so far i’ve only eaten the rachel’s vanilla chai and plum honey lavender and the good karma organic rice divine very vanilla. the yogurts were mediocre, nothing special. the flavors weren’t as there as much as i would’ve hoped – it was just kind of…yogurt. granted my mouth is stitched up and healing from surgery so my ability to taste is probably hindered.

i looooved the good karma organic rice divine. it’s kind of different – almost like silk soy milk ice cream, even though it’s free from soy? it’s not over-sweet, and it’s super-smooth and creamy. i really want to try their other flavors (carrot cake?? mudd pie?? coconut mango?? MMM!) but i figured i’d get something smooth as to not to have to move my mouth too much.

okayy now i’m getting woozy so i’m going to get to bed.

PEACE OUTTTTTTTTT.

from mayoclinic.com:

Second-degree burn
When the first layer of skin has been burned through and the second layer of skin (dermis) also is burned, the injury is called a second-degree burn. Blisters develop and the skin takes on an intensely reddened, splotchy appearance. Second-degree burns produce severe pain and swelling.

If the second-degree burn is no larger than 3 inches (7.5 centimeters) in diameter, treat it as a minor burn. If the burned area is larger or if the burn is on the hands, feet, face, groin or buttocks, or over a major joint, treat it as a major burn and get medical help immediately.